I'm so scared that I can't make you happy enough, and you'll leave me again. I'm so scared of caring too much, or making you mine again, because I'm afraid of chasing you away. Do you know this feeling, this happiness when I'm with you but this reluctance to let you go, because I'll never know when you're only pretending that everything is okay, that you're happy, but you'll leave me out of the blue again, just like that previous time. Do you know this fear of losing you is so immense, I'm willing to cut up myself just to make you happy, until all that's left are broken pieces of myself I don't recognise anymore? That's how I'm feeling right now. You said that you're confused, but do you know that I can see your love for me as clear as day?

This fear of losing you is so overpowering, that I don't really know how to be myself anymore.