I don't know why but there's a lot of things that I no longer care for (like getting good grades, people, etc) and it's getting scary. Sometimes I wonder if I should make the effort to start caring again, but it would only lead to disappointment no?

I think I'm a selfish person; I don't like it when something belonging to me gets taken away, I don't like sharing

I love feeling 'high' after a few drinks: it makes you feel like you can fly without falling, laugh without inhibitions. The world is a blur, reality is nothing but a joke. Expectations are forgotten, ignored, safely at the back of your mind. What is real indeed? Then you crash back to reality. Like all other falls, there is nothing but pain and shock.