In a nutshell

I remember heading to DD's house for some mahjong right after exams ended, and playing for ten hours straight. I remember DD, Hoe, me and our Genting trip early December. I remember working at the Expo (again) and quitting because of all the drama, then slacking at home and playing Pokemon; N's 21st and post-party drinks @ Red Dot; playing badminton with DD; a wild and crazy k session followed by the crazy drinking session at N's house; catching up with all my friends (JJMV, and my primary school friends). Christmas was well-spent with both mine and DD's families, and we counted down at Red Dot with fake snow, beer and good food plus music. Today was k and a surprise visit to J's house with LX. The coming week seems packed with activities too but I rather stay busy. It's a good but tired kind of busy.

Delusional

That moment, after you had half a pint too much and your head starts spinning controllably. You babble, and don't know if you're trying to hold a conversation or having a brutally honest monologue. It takes so much to speak, and you're not making any sense, when you know you are. I'm in half-like for moments like this.

Trust me

Trust is a very scary thing. It's so fragile, and it can't be taken back after you give it away. I don't know what to do now. My head is a mess and a swirl of thoughts and I just want to crawl under my covers and hide from you. I want to trust you, but I want my trust back. Can I have a refund please?

I don't have a human heart anymore

"I don't know if I can go back to him. He loves me. Bill, he loves me so much it hurts to even think about it. But I don't love him the same. I think if I were still human, I would. I know that I... I would. But I don't have a human heart anymore."