This

I want to leap out of my chair and sing off-key at the top of my voice and walk under the rain without an umbrella and sit by somewhere quiet with only my thoughts in my head. I want to buy a bus ticket and take off on the impulse (I will take you along if you want); I want to sit by the beach all night waiting for the sun to rise; I want to sit on a roller coaster again and relish the feeling of zooming past everything with my heart in my throat and my hair flying behind me. I want to shop till I drop. I want to feel alive, I want to feel anything but this.